Donald Glover rose up the ranks of the comedy world quickly, and went from a youtube sensation to writer on 30 Rock to star of Community while still under the age of thirty. And when it returns , Glover plans to leave Community after a five episode run, which some see as an effort to focus on his work as a rapper, though he also recently started working on a different television series for FX. Glover responded with a series of notes he left on Instagram, and it’s already got people talking.
Ugh. And not to get too inside baseball, but writers sure love blood on the water, and it’s easy to see how what Donald Glover wrote might strike them as dark and disturbing. Glover posted notes on Instagram that start with him saying “I’m afraid of the future. I’m afraid my parents won’t live long enough to see my kids. I’m afraid my show will fail. I’m scared my girl will get pregnant at not the exact right time we want. I’m scared I’ll never reach my potential. I’m scared she’s still in love with that dude.”
That’s page one, by page two he writes “I’m scared people will find out what I masturbate to” and “I feel that this will feel pretentious.” Then he says things like “I’m scared I’ll be Tyrese” and “I’m scared Dan Harmon hates me.” Then he explains why he left Community:
I didn’t leave Community to rap. I don’t wanna rap. I wanted to be on my own.
I’ve been sick this year. I’ve seen a bunch of people die this year. This is the first time I’ve felt helpless. But I’m not on that.
Kept looking for something to be in with. Follow someone’s blueprint. But you have to be on your own.
Then he explains that his album won’t come out at the end of the year because — according to his label — he’s not famous enough.
Perhaps it’s dark to express that you’re worried about your life, but if you’re going through some emotional turmoil and you’re also a public figure, the idea that saying “hey, I’ve been going through some things and didn’t want to address it until now” shouldn’t automatically be typed as dark or disturbed. But doing so is headline-grabbing. Read as a whole, he’s just letting it all out that things have been tumultuous in his life, and picking and choosing which elements he meant more seems a little silly. But judge for yourself by reading it in its entirety.
Does this read to you as the ramblings of a disturbed mind?